Feelings

A world of perspectives
A balance of lives
Of happiness and joy
and of sadness and despair.

Sometimes you are one,
yet others you are both.

You sit on the edge
feet dangling of the ledge,
you see both sides
and you are both sides.

The feeling inside
you have to hide.

Is it right to show joy
while others live on tears;
Is it wrong to enjoy
while others dread and fear
the worst -
has come
and the end is near.

You step off the ledge
but the less you know,
now these mixed feelings
they get stronger, no they don't go
away

till time eventually
erases them
away.

From the time I heard the news I have been wondering, is it right to still be happy, to celebrate, to have fun, while just on the other side of the ledge others are living in constant worry and despair. And you know both sides, but either may not know each other, may not be related and may not have a clue, and their lives are perfectly fine and nothing is affecting their moods. So you have to go along with them, act like nothing's happened on their side, while at the same time the other side suffers, and you suffer inside. I finally penned down these mixed feelings yesterday night, the last night, the night before the plug is pulled.